Want Less Love More

I have reached that point in my life, where I feel, or rather believe that I am very close to possibly attaining Nirvana and I'm not talking about the rock group.

I feel a sense of fulfillment and I believe that I can clearly distinguish between my wants and needs, well most of the time.

A wise person once told me that to seek happiness; you need to isolate yourself from things, that you may believe will bring you happiness or don't let your happiness be attached to people or objects.

Once you learn to be happy devoid of these things, you will be truly happy. This is all still work in progress and I know with a lot of focus and determination I will achieve this soon.

At the moment I ‘Need’ a job, to sustain a living and run a household, other than that I don't really need anything else.

As far as relationships are concerned, I'm open to possibilities but I'm not going to look out for them. In the past few weeks I've learnt a lot about life.

As humans we all want better things in life, no matter how much we may have currently, it’s never enough. We are tuned to seek better deals both in our professional and personal lives.

We are all so busy in looking for more money, a better house, car, phone and clothes, that we forget that this will only bring temporary happiness.

Now generally most people look for aesthetically appealing mates. Now I know that some of you may not agree, and say it’s the nature of a person that one is drawn to and I would agree to some extent, but the fact is women are drawn to rich successful, good looking men and men are just drawn to good looking women.

Well I know that once you meet a person you will look for other qualities and not all people are shallow and will go for the beautiful / handsome and rich factors, however our society is selling something different in their matrimonial columns.

In most cases our matrimonial columns sends subliminal messages when they advertise using key words like fair, tall, beautiful, rich, MBA,  Green Card Holder and well settled. You will never see a column with very sweet and kind, pleasing personality however she/he is short, fat, and is from a middle class family

Marriages are become a marketing strategy in which the bride and groom are the products that need to be sold. Another factor of the whole marriage charade that makes my blood boil is the fact that educated people still follow the dowry system.

Now most will not admit it, but disguise it under the pretense of custom, tradition, or just say that they feel like giving the grooms family gifts or the other way around.

Well I could write about how I hate the very act of this gift giving, trade off, groom and bride selling event, however I will leave that for another blog.

I conclude this post stating that most of us derive our happiness from attaining objects, status, people and not from living and experiencing life.

Free Time

 

It’s been 7 weeks and counting since I quit my Job. My search for rest, relaxation and recreation has been fulfilled and now it’s time I get back to work.

I have posted my resume to possibly every single recruitment agency and companies in Mumbai, Delhi, Bangalore, and other parts of India as well as overseas. I have applied for every possible job barring Driver, Watchman, Cook, Dhobi-walla, Doodh-walla, Kachara -walla, Fruit/vegetable-walla, and the other walla's. This however will be on my go to list if I do not get another job in the next 6weeks.

My resume has been shortlisted countless times, now that apparently is a good sign, companies’ feel that I have the skills that they need. I get calls from recruiters stating that an interview will be held shortly, another ray of hope to getting a job. However I have still not cracked for how long I need to wait for “shortly” to materialize.

Follow up sessions with these recruitment agencies only prove that I have received a ghost call. They are unaware that I was ever contacted, which leads me to believe that I am either delusional or they are inept, I will go with the latter.

I seem to have the same response with women, I get positive vibes and for some reason even before the dating starts I'm struck off the list, hmm mm I'm not complaining but wondering if there is some reason why this happens.

So the search still continues with regards to a job. In the meantime I have so far clocked over 500+ hours (42%) on beauty sleep, which I might say has had absolute no effect on me. I am starting to doubt that theory. I still look the same when I worked for 10hrs straight.

I spent the other 58% of my time watching movies, reading, eating, socializing, writing, indulging in some photography, shopping and attending to personal hygiene.

I wanted to travel abroad and even made plans however whenever I plan the trip never materializes and being an Indian is of no help either, now don’t get all patriotic and start fuming or bring out the ‘James Go Back’ placards. My irritation is justified as getting a visa is almost impossible when you are unemployed.

I owe these liberal visa laws to my so called All Indians are my brothers and sisters who live illegally across the world and create a nuisance when they are abroad. Thanks to them it’s so easy to get a visa. I am being sarcastic, just in case you didn’t get it.

So I am at home right now and I am still enjoying the ‘free time’ at the moment. I am not panicking right now as I have given myself 6months /24weeks to find a job. Panic is due in another 6weeks. So till then Adios.